'I don't believe in divorce but have to take care of myself': Khloe Kardashian...

For the past seven months Khloe Kardashian has left her fans wondering about what will happen to her marriage to Lamar Odom now that he had his near-death experience at a brothel in Nevada.

On Tuesday,Khloe went on record to confirm that her marriage to Lamar was over when she penned an essay for Lena Dunham's newsletter Lenny.

Read the letter after the jump...

The E! bombshell revealed she is now in a 'different place' with the former NBA great and needs to protect herself 'emotionally and mentally' from the man who cheated on her and seems to have gone back to drinking.

When she first started writing about Lamar in the lengthy article (which is most about her faith),She wrote: 

'I've been blessed with a lot in my life, and I've also had challenges. It was a challenge for me when I decided to get divorced.'

She added: 'At my core, I don't believe in divorce, but I came to a point in my marriage where I had to make the choice to take care of my own mental and emotional well-being in order to protect myself and my happiness.

'I am at peace with that decision and do feel like I honored my vows to the very end. I feel that I kept the serious vows I made in front of God with every inch of my heart, which is why I am still honoring them today even though my relationship with my ex-husband is in a different place.'

Khloe then focused on why she nursed the former LA Lakers back to health and helped him set up a new home in Calabasas.

'I believe in caring for my partner — past or present — "in sickness and in health," and feel at peace with my relationship with God even after the fact.'

She ended: 'I'm thankful that I can rely on my God, who, along with my family, has led me through some of the most difficult times of my life.'

After Lamar got his health back after a drug overdose in October, the estranged couple seemed to be on the mend.

There was talk that they could be happily married again after she brought the one-time top athlete to Kanye West's Yeezy 2 show in New York City in February.

But then Khloe reportedly became upset that Odom went back to drinking alcohol in March.

He was spotted at a bar in Sherman Oaks the night before Easter.

Since then, the two have not been seen much together and Lamar has been seen again drinking hard alcohol at bars, even as recently as early May at the Beverly Center.

Khloe also wrote about her spirituality in the newsletter run by Dunham and Jenni Konner. 

She began: 'When you think Kardashian, devout probably isn't the first thing that crosses your mind. Believe it or not, I come from a very religious family.'

She added: 'My father was Christian Armenian, and I've always gone to Presbyterian or Catholic schools. Growing up, I remember going to one Catholic school where we went to Mass and would take Communion.

'Of course, you weren't supposed to take it unless you were Catholic, but I was in second grade and I did it anyway. At the time, I didn't understand the difference between Catholics and Christians — I didn't understand why I was being told I couldn't take Communion. I just started crying. My dad explained it to me by telling me I was dedicated to the Lord and that was all that mattered.'

She also admitted she has ready up on Buddhism and has studied the Quran and observed Ramadan while adding: 

'I believe with every fiber of my being that there is a higher power.'

Khole also described losing her father Robert Kardashian and her anger. She added reading Embraced by the Light and Angels Among Us helped her heal.

She added: 'My relationship with spirituality has changed over the years, but I've never stopped believing.'

Her last line was: 'I know how fortunate I am.'

I still hope that she and Lamar make-up and let go the past. Another thing could be that she reads the bible upside down. Cause it's in the bible. 

'God hates divorce.'